My dilemma reading through the Bible

one chapter from finishing Joshua. It has not been an easy book. It’s hard to read about God’s judgement on the people of the promise land carried out by the Israelites. I’ve also had a hard time examining my motives. I’m going at a very slow pace through the bible from front to back. Genesis to Revelation. What part is “want to”, what part is “should”, and what part still hears the echo of the man i met in the airport last year. who knows if i even heard him right, but what i remember is him telling me that i needed to go back to college. when i protested going back to school he told me that the bible was to be my college. which is all well and good. but after that, i understood him to say that i would be taken to preserved scrolls, by which i would be involved in translating a new perfect English Bible, or at least the old testament. oh, and of course i would be doing this work by the gift of interpretation of tongues, meaning that a scholar would read the scroll in it’s language , but i would hear him instead in English. Nuts right. right. of course it’s crazy. but for some reason it is still seductive. appealing to my sense of adventure, religious devotion. anybody bipolar out there sympathize. In my dreams, i can fly. But i know that once i wake up i can’t.